ok...

So. I haven't just turned into a pessimist..

I have always been one...

But now I really mean it!

Single.

Still.

No Such Luck!

I'm beginning to think there is really... no such thing as Love!

I've turned into a Pessimist!

Mr. Right....

Just a few things I'm looking for in Mr. Right.....

1. smart

2. handsome

3. likes kids

4. genuine

5. tall

6. speaks English

7. tough

8. sensitive

9. has hair

10. sense of humor

11. silly

12. good family values

13. close with his parents

14. is established

those are just a few... doesn't seem hard to find... does it...

YES IT IS!

How did you find your "Plus 1"?

Looking in the wrong places!

My dad always said I would find a good man at church!

I haven't been to church in 10 years plus...

I was brought up LDS, though have not been the traditional LDS gal.

Always breaking the rules and what not...

Maybe that has been my problem this whole time...

Looking in the wrong places!

(I'm about to confess)

I met my ex husband on.... OYE.. the Internet!

And the last boyfriend, before The Contender... and probably 5 boyfriends before that!

How embarrassing!

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Being a single mom, I rarely got a chance to go out.

As i stated... I didn't go to church.

I didn't have a group..

I wasn't one to be set up!

My guy friends were just my friends!

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I'm vowing never to meet anyone on there again!

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Maybe church is the way to go....

but for the mean time... I'm off the market!

I'm done with Boys!

Bring me a MAN...

oh.. wait...

For the time being, I'm staying single!

Check back tomorrow..

Ive been known to change my mind!

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A LOT!

Not really trying that hard...

I have pretty much halted all "finding love" efforts...

I'm not sure I am 100% into it..

The Contender and I are still speaking, and friends, and "poke" each other on facebook from time to time... but for the most part.. I'm still single, but not really looking to mingle.

Its these times in life, where I regain control over my SINGLE LIFE...

and embrace it.

I think I'm going to be one of those ladies.. 96 years old and that's when i meet my Mr. Perfect!

Might because I have lost my hearing, eyesight, sense of smell.. and hair...

but that's alright...

I'm sure he will be perfect!

Aching....

I'm missing The Contender....

Miss talking to him....

Miss texting with him....

Darnit..

Did I make a mistake?

Single... again.. I think!

What do you do when you want to spend time with your 'man'... but his routine and schedule are a higher priority?

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The Contender and I... are splitsville.

Makes me sad!!!!

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I broke it off today.

Seeing things so differently, who knows how they could be mended.

I have been faulted for wanting to spend more time with him.

Once a week, if that... just didn't cut it.

The time we would spend together, in each others company.. was the best time I have spent with a man in a long time.. Genuine time..

The effortless encounters where we would just fall into each others thoughts, and laugh, hug, kiss, and just be so happy, is what I'm going to miss...

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The yearning for his attention when we were apart, was not something I was proud of... feeling inadequate, and sad that he would rather spend time at home, by himself, living his routine, was hurtful, and something I just don't think I could accept. I became this needy twit, that I have never been, and don't care to return too...

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Yes, we dated for less then 2 months, not long at all...but The Contender and I have known each other for 15 years, and I really thought this was the time, we would shine.. and really have the chance to date!

I guess it was too late!

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I think I should see a Therapist...

Will I ever find "the one"?